The Perfect Place To Be Annoyed

There are days when even I don’t like being around me.

Today is one of those days.

It’s been a busy stretch of late. Personal and professional obligations have outpaced my capacity to properly fuel my ability to take care of them. Quality sleep and quality nutrition have been the collateral damage in my attempt to balance all that needs to be balanced.

I’m annoyed, easily agitated, a bit overwhelmed, and I don’t see any upcoming breaks in the schedule where I’ll be able to catch my breath.

I’m not good at being miserable.

But here I am, trying not to splatter my misery upon those around me.

For me, one of the best parts about being miserable is being able to step back and notice that I am. To recognize that, yes, I am annoyed and easily agitated. When I find myself in this place, I’ve learned to create a safe space for me to be so.

A place where I can non-judgmentally see what’s going on and to simply allow it to be. 

To simply allow myself the space to go through it.

My thoughts usually take me to many dark places when I’m in this state. Worst-case scenarios with undesirable outcomes find my overwhelmed mind to be the perfect breeding ground to plant their seeds in. So, I’ve learned to simply let them do what they do, offering no resistance knowing that my elevated levels of annoyance are temporary, and my eventual return to a less agitated place will prevent any of the seeds of doubt from taking root.

It’s a process, a process I’ve often gone through, a process that will play itself out and I’m just going to let it do so.

The more I’ve fought with my annoyances, the more I’ve found to be annoyed about. 

Now I just don’t fight.

Sometimes the best thing we can do for ourself is to compassionately support ourself through our process, creating a safe space to just be.

It’s the perfect place to be annoyed.

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